Has there ever been someone who’s presence and impact on your life is so special that the example they set only grows stronger over time, regardless of if they are physically with you or not? Oh, I pray there is someone like that for you or will be someone like that for you because I know how precious a gift that is in this life. My Maw Maw was that person for me. Last week, I traveled back home to say a ‘see you again someday’ to her.
While I was visiting, my Mom and I went to do a (potentially) final walk through my Maw Maw and Paw Paw’s house. They have both gone to heaven now so the house was empty…a way that I rarely have seen the place. It was usually full of life, laughter and sunshine but that day it ushered my emotions into a state of saying ‘goodbye’ to a place that was a magical haven during my childhood and “growing up” years. I went to corners of the house that were regular spots where Maw Maw and I sat to talk. Close to one of those spots were some small notebooks where Maw Maw had written prayers and thoughts. This was not an uncommon sight even when her house was bustling with grandkids and activity…I always remember her having notecards and notebooks and devotionals everywhere around her house. I picked up one and it was from the year 2000…I was 10!
The day after her funeral, I started flipping through her penned words and tears began to fill my eyes as I read her heartfelt prayers. Prayers for specific people, lessons the Lord was teaching her, but most of all…praise. She always knew how to “enter His gates with thanksgiving.” Just as I was becoming overwhelmed with emotion, a notecard that I had brought from her house caught my eye. I flipped it over and read these words: “Lord, fill my mouth with worthwhile stuff– and nudge me when I’ve said enough.” And just like in true Maw Maw fashion…she left me both amazed and amused! I couldn’t help but giggle over this whimsical and wise rhyme turned prayer, that will now stay with me forever.
Maw Maw’s mouth was always filled with worthwhile stuff and her heart was always fixed on Christ. I know it didn’t happen overnight, it took years and years of learning, listening, leaning on Christ and spending quiet and secret moments seeking Jesus that produced the fruit all could see in her life. Even until her final days, she was encouraging those around her, making them smile, and praying for them. She kept a prayer journal at her bedside at the nursing home where she stayed the last few years. Everywhere she went and everything she did…had a greater purpose.
Thank you for reading the words that I’ve been needing to get out. I’m glad it’s reaching you. That’s part of my Maw Maw’s legacy as well. Because of her faithfulness and prayers…lives continue to be touched by her presence here on earth. I pray that as wives, mothers, friends, and the many other roles that we occupy, that our mouths will be filled with worthwhile stuff–and that we will be nudged when we’ve said enough. Now there’s a prayer that could change the way we live our lives…if we let it.